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Finals in another week.
Mother's Day in another two weeks.
Finals finishing in three weeks.
Internship starts in another four weeks.

First and foremost, i am not prepared for anything mentioned above and i am not eager to have go through any of those.

Speaking about internships, i am in dilemma now. Seriously. I do not know which one should i go though i have already comfirm my offer letter from PWC. However, i do prefer Accenture to PWC because the paid is higher and the jobscope is more interesting. Well, i still need to have comfirmation from Accenture first.

Mother's Day? My mom is not even beside me. I strongly agree that distance does makes people feel apart in terms of relationship. However, our mother-daughter relationship is quite serious one, compared to others who can talk to her mom about everything, jokes with her and shop with her. I do not know why we are so apart, and unattached like other mother and daughter. Maybe my mom works, she spent more time resting and working than with me. I find it hard to really talk to her, even worst nowadays since she is so far away. The sms that i sent, i admit it is very formal and fake. I just find it weird and i don't know... just don't feel being loved. ==.

I don't know how should i plan for my future and money. My money is decreasing each day and i cannot control it. I feel bad and insecured. I don't know what to do. i always tell myself not to buy unnecessary and stop shopping. But the thing is that i have not been to shopping for quite some time. Most of the time, i spend on others, birthday presents (this month was disasters) . How? It's either i need a super rich and doesn't mind paying for me punya bf or really control my spending and set budget on everything including social life and stop putting others in front of myself.