whining.

i'm tired. tired of people asking me the same questions and i am basically tired of answering their curiosities. i know they concern but somehow i am not in the position where i'm given the authority to make all the things happen. if only things are not connected in this world, i definitely could do what i want, go where i want.

i am employed but as long as i do not get the offer letter yet i do not want to tell people that i've been taken in. i hope they'll call to ask me to collect tomoro so that i can officially tell people that i will be working and don't have to see their kesian face that say "so long still not yet working" and hate to hear them asking if i'm choosy and what company have i applied and why i didnt get any calls yet????. wtf. so what if i am not working yet, my parents never nag me, my sisters basically asking me to enjoy first. so what's the big deal?

... also i'm starting this may instead of april because i want to get my braces done. only manage to make appointment with the hospital last week and hopefully i'll settle everything asap, get my 8 teeth removed and put on braces. Diao, have yet to receive the cash from tiger run, nuffnang says tiger hasn't pay... ZZZZ. so many months already, now everything pending. sien.... i'm so sick of telling people why there isn't any braces on the upper arch...

argghh.. i need a place to move in so that i can have my own space. been running here and there for the past months.

the worse part was going home last weekends. it's the most stressful place on earth, because there's the place where you see the most ugly part of the people. why bother to stay as a family when you do not even have the love for each other? constantly stabbing each other, accusing and hating one another, why bother come back to visit the ancestors? oh, i remember about the part where being filial and visit to the tomb gives you prosperity and better living because you get the blessing from the ancestors. but what i know about that event is, it's a time where the family gathers to share and care for each other, not to pray that you earns and strikes more lottery. ZZZzzz.

haih, sucks to maximum.